G&R，Chinese Democracy

Chinese Democracy

It dont really matter
Youll find out for yourself
No it don’t really matter
You’re gonna leave this thing to
Somebody else

If they missionaries
Real time visionaries
Sitting in a Chinese school
To view my dis-infatu-ation
I know that Im a classic case
Watch my disenchanted face
Blame it on the Falun Gong
Theyve seen the end and you cant hold on now

Cause it would take a lot more hate than you
To stop the fascination
Even with an iron fist
Our baby got to rule the nation
But all I got is precious time

It dont really matter
Youre gonna find out for yourself
No it dont really matter
So you can hear now from
Somebody else

Cause it would take a lot more time than you
Ive got more masturbation
Even with your iron fist
More than you got to rule the nation
But all I got is precious time
More than you got to rule the nation
But all I got is precious time

It dont really matter
Gonna keep it to myself
No it dont really matter
So you can hear it now from
Somebody else

You think you got it all locked up inside
And if you beat them all up theyll die
Then you’ll walk them home for the cells
Then now you’ll dig for your road back to hell
And with your ???? makes you stop
As if your eyes were their eyes you can tell
In your lack of time

公元二零零八年十一月二十三日，G&R发表了新专辑《chinese democracy》，距上一张专辑的发布已是15年了。主打歌《chinese democracy》为有的人所不齿，我觉得ALEX的指向是宽泛的，他想表达的是强权恐怖的力量虽然可以威慑一时，但最终会消亡，因为它不能泯灭一个人 心中自由的火花，“因为这样会花费你更多的时间，而我享受更多的手淫……我们孩子会统治这个帝国，而我手中握有时间流沙。”“Cause it would take a lot more time than you，I've got more masturbation…… Our baby got to rule the nation，but all I got is precious time”，每个人要做的只是内心小小的坚持。这并不是仅仅针对中国，只不过中国的民主成绩显著，突出代表了这一类形象——powerful，evil， zhuangbility。

杨亻圭走了，留下了一串疑问。在血案之前，他和上海警方到底发生了什么？是什么促使他以身犯险？杨母为什么会失踪？为什么会以刘亚玲之名住进精神病院？什 么人要掩盖什么？程序上是否违法？如果违法，审判结果是否正当？死刑有必要吗？惩戒一个人是否必须通过摧毁一个人的生命来达到，即使他罪大恶极？如果公权 部门不能给出答案，那么所谓恶意的贬低实际上是直指黑幕的剑锋。

在我最早的walkerman，以及后来的CD随身听和IPOD中始终有两首形影不离，其中一首是civil war。我曾经思索良久“到底哪一个是我心中G&R的NO.1？”很长一段时间，是civil war占据了首位，那时的我爱死了硬摇滚，我狂躁、易怒、不平、愤世嫉俗、无力，我不在乎自己的生命，这世界太丑陋了，不值得我去珍惜，我要去毁灭，毁灭 我的敌人，毁灭我自己，如果遇到强有力的刺激，我也会是杨亻圭。在重金属里，我找到了同类，找到了生命的契合，找到了一种不同的生活方式。

这样子过了许久，有一天，这个长不大的孩子忽然发现，所有幸福、痛苦都由自己选择而来，原来，我是可以选择的。这刺破了他的无力感，他不再认同这世界不可 改变，是的，这世界可以缓慢地改变。也许我无法看到结果，可这一切是必须的、必经的、必定的。我预料到这旅途的漫长、琐屑和枯燥，我有耐心行跬步至千里， 驱小流成江海，堆微尘起山峦。

有人说，这没有用的。我来说个故事。有个科室主任，如果要简单地评论他，两个字，“狗屌”。他在位子上多年，一直没有下台。每年的中层考核，大伙都评他不 合格，按单位规定，连续两年不合格就要被换岗，可他还是不挪窝，有人说，他是有背景的，大伙心冷了，都说“没有用的”。多年后的一天，人事科下来考查，因 为这时科里有个副主任，业务和人品方面远远高他一筹，俨然已是他的竞争对手，“狗屌”慌了，紧急安排了新到科室的不知底细不敢出声的年经人和他自己的人来 参加与人事科的谈话，并对中间分子施以拉拢。谈话的七个人中有五个是“他的人”，结果，他通过了审查。其他人找到人事科，说“这事情是科室的事情，我也要 发表意见”，人事科根据其内容和建议在事隔一星期后，再次举行了谈话调查。这一次，大伙儿主动出击，不容他安排，自己找上门去。出夜班的主动留下来，还没 来上班的，电话通知后赶紧过来，这一回，否定意见是压倒性胜利。最后，那个主任下来了，留在科室里做了平民百姓，而副主任上台了。那就是我的科室。你看， 事情是可以改变的。事情的改变不是一蹴而就的，它经历久远，可即使心灰意冷，每年考核我们还是坚持给他打X，他的不合理决定我们会提出反对意见，反对无效时，我们采取不配合态度，当事态、情绪积累到一定程度时，上下都觉得需要改变了。所以，事情的成败在于我们，是我们成就了它。是我们用自己的选择，用每一 张票来实现的，民主的意义就是每个人都有表达和选择的权利，不要放弃它。所以，不要说这是“没有用的”，你的选票弥足珍贵，你的离去只会增加你所憎恶东西 的筹码。

我们可以改变这个世界。

我依旧欣赏那些瞬间暴发的激情，放肆张扬的表述，不顾一切的冲动，可如今的我更欣赏那些柔软、绵长的力量。我赞叹水滴石穿胜于惊涛拍岸，喜欢深流暗涌胜于 飞流直下，钦佩胡适多于鲁迅。身体里的血依然发烫，只是让它小声地冒着泡泡。也许我老了，也许那个长不大的孩子沿着自己的树干伸长了一点点。所以，现在我 的G&R最爱是第二首，是的，是这一首




November Rain lyrics

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one